MY TRUE EMOTIONS>>I'M THROUGH

This is to whom it may concern {I'M THROUGH WITH YOU}I'm sick and tired of letting you know how I feel then always ending up being the bad guy. I pour my heart out every time and all I get in return is criticism. DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH IT HURTS TO FEEL LIKE ALL YOUR WORTH IS ENTERTAINMENT? I don't know why I am such a fool to keep coming back to you. Maybe its because I fucking love you. but fuck that shit now I'M THROUGH. I need to find someone who will appreciate all the love I'm pouring into them. I work my ass off to make you feel better when your down. when you cried I cried. when you smiled I smiled,you mean the fucking world to me...and at Christmas when all I want is to spend some time with you, IT'S TOO MUCH OF A BURDEN! REALLY?!?!. you just told me that your schedule was clear suddenly, and you can't even make an effort to see me for one day. that's just bullshit. I'm sorry other men have caused you to be like this. But I don't deserve to be treated like this.....My Christmas is officially over I'm going back home in the morning...FUCK IT...My heart is officially ripped apart I hope you have a good life. MERRY FUCKING CHRISTMAS!!!

A SPIT OPINION>>>>ABOUT YOU KNOW..........

Growing up, for some reason I always found myself talking about sex. No I am not a pervert, but for some reason it was just the main topic on the table all the time.
Now every once in a while I would come across the type of person who will relinquish there habits, thoughts, actions, etc towards sex, whether it be because of religious reasons or petty reasons like "I can't find the right man". I would say girls as well too, but for some reason, alot of guys can careless about the extras within a one night stand. A guy comes in the room looking at a eager woman and he is usually guaranteed a nut. Woman, well most woman, thanks to society, will allow their feelings and emotions to become tied in with the physical aspects of sex.

Well I have an opinion for both sides. Coming out of my high school, my city, my hood and going into A&T, the same words are repeated. "She's a slut, smut, ho, whore, jump-off, popper, etc." Personally I can care less about that. When a man sleeps around, gets with this girl one night, that girl the other night, and this girl in the morning, he gets praised. Don't nobody talk shit about him, actually even more girls want him (funny). Now my opinion is that, women who do not tie in emotions with sex, congrats, because you are changing society as many people complain about. If not hiring a women instead of a man is sexist, then calling a shawty a slut and a dude a pimp is sexist too.

Now, for the modest women and their opinions about sex....it's is usually the guys fault. For all of the modest girls who are not virgins...it is definitely the guys fault. I am a man in love, but obviously sex is a huge part in many relationships nowadays. Now I am not saying it is needed, because I know successful relationships that prosper without it. It is said in the bible that sex should not be initiated until marriage. I am a Christian, but I believe the bible over time has been misinterpreted and tampered with. Many people think that the disciples and biblical characters were peaceful and modest, NO, King David was a beast. He didn't sit back and talk to the Philistines nicely, he talked shit and cut dudes heads off! Now the same thing with sex. Marriage used to be a holy ritual that was used to bind a couple. Well back then, you met a person you liked, you admitted it, and you got married. Now marriage can take as long as 20 years. You do not need an expensive wedding, a huge cake, and a marriage license to have sex with someone you love...or even like, or that you just find cute for that matter.

And for the guys that messed up that "first time" for the lady...shame on you. Do your research, find those special spots that will make a girls feet curl. Remember, a guy can feel good with almost anything, girls are complicated. There are things to do and know that will have a girl spreading the word about ya. (Grafenberg spot a.k.a G-Spot, the clit and its thousands of nerve endings, the vulva that inflames after insertion, the labia's minor and major that are sensitive to tongue. The positions that will have a girl cumming with the first few pumps.) And ladies, be open to try new things. If sex was so bad, then I do not believe that our Lord would have created us this way.

Guys and Girls, do not be afraid to ask ya friends for advice, for info. I am not promoting sex, I am just tired of hearing what I hear about it. Get on ya game if you like it and do it and WRAP I UP. And if ya don't do it, stay confident in what you do. Don't take the bullshit.

The Gatekeepers

I had another interesting conversation about sex, but not so much of the actual sex, but mainly the rules of sex or no sex.
Me and a friend called it Gatekeeping. Think of a woman and her, I'll keep it PG, present being the gate. Now obviously if you need a metaphor, any guy has a "Key" to the gate. But guys can not use their keys whenever they want. Now I always knew and sometimes hated the fact that women regulate when and where and who can use the gate. Now, of course that is appropriate as it does belong to them. But guys, doesn't it suck that when a women is horny all she has to do is call any guy over and ask for the Key?
Now my friend made an amazing point. When it comes to regulating sex itself, women are the true gatekeeper, but when it comes to how good the sex is...the men use the key and control the gate.
Could you imagine how it would have been if the men were Gate Keepers? I bet there would be sex bars and sex clubs all over every city and town. I had this conversation as well. The average man's orgasm only last from 9-12 seconds and it doesn't feel nearly as good in comparison to a woman's orgasm which can last from 24-40 seconds, and if a guy knows what he is doing he can keep her in an orgasmic state. If these stats are the way they are, why are guys sssoooo desperate to get the gate when it should be the girl who wants the key.
Sometimes I wished that sex was an equal pleasure to both sex so guys would stop competing in bed instead of trying to make the girl feel good, and the girl would stop being so picky with what guy she gets.
Keys are like a lottery ticket. A girl can pick the cutest guy in the club and depending on certain aspects the woman has a high chance of getting him, but just because a guy is cute, the lottery ticket may have a great look but maybe the numbers come up short and not worth it? On the other hand, almost any gate would feel good to a key, but a key doesn't always fill the key hole lol.
Is there a huge reason why women are so protective with their gates...well most women...is it a sense of power, dignity, or security? Do women feel that giving your gate to a key means you are losing a part of yourself? Is it societies fault that men are "over key users" and women are "Gatekeepers"?

From Make Up to Mask

Aiight, out of all the girls I have dated, only about two or three actually wore make up. Now I do not understand why these women feel that make up is ssssoooo important. Personally I do like what make up does. I like seeing a girl with rosy cheeks and glossy lips, longer dark eye lashes and maybe an exotic eye lining, but there is a difference between just normal make up and an obsession.
I beleive guys do it too. I know some guys that get there ears pierced and would never leave the house without wearing an earring. I too hate it when I leave the house without my ring or my chain, but this topic is about make up and its influences through socialization.
I have a big issue with make up commercials, because they only cast the most beautiful "America's opinion" and they represent the make up. Then these commercials drill in women's...and some men's, heads that they can look like models with the make up. ITS JUST MAKIN MONEY! I've seen ten different mascara commercials and they all are the same exact thing just a different name and color and yet women buy it believing it will make them better.
I used to tell one of the girls I used to date. When i came over, I didn't want your hair done, I didn't want you to put on any make up, I didn't want you to get dressed. I wanted to come through with you in your comfortable pajamas, a wife beater or whatever, no bra, no panties, just u and me and chill time. And she did just that and when a couple is comfortable then everything seems ten times more easier.
I'm starting to believe that women who become too attached to make up begin to hide themselves in a MASK. They may act different and think different just because their make up makes them feel a certain way. I think a confidence booster is great, but when a women acts more like an asshole to ppl because she thinks she's Deville from 101 dalmations, then it is a problem.
I love arguing with my girl about make up or no make up...of course I lose 90% of the time, but yet it amuses me to see how much society gets into people's heads and control what they buy. Fashion and Food, two multi billion dollar industries that play the shit out of us into buying more and more of the crap they put out. How is it that mean went from tight jeans in the 60s, tight "hang off the ass" jeans in the 70s, baggy "hang off the ass jeans" in the 80s and 90s and now we back to tight ass jeans in the 21st century?
I think make up should be like a pair of nice high heels for women. Take it out on special occasions. Show the true you and embrace it and have some fun with the fashion and glamor when ya go out.

My personal opinion...I believe women who need their nails done, hair done, make up done, the best clothes possible are of one of two things: 1: they do not know who they are and they need and let society tell them who they are. 2: they are single and are really desperate for some love.

Guys we have our issues too. Stop trying to look cuter than the girls. The women are supposed to be the pretty ones. A guy shouldn't be in a woman's salon more than a woman. I'm not saying don't groom yaself, but don't become obsessed with looking better than ya date. They supposed to look good, give them the spot light.

Cold hearted men VS Hot headed women

I have been having a few conversations about how men are and how women are and how it contributes to our clash of actions and ways of communication. I am going to make a quick comparison on the behalf of men...since I am one. Ladies u have been calling men dogs for years...and in many ways you are right. Dogs have no problem letting everyone know what they want. If a dog is hungry, it'll find any kind of food possible and eat it whether its nasty or not, if it is tired it'll sleep anywhere without worrying about its surroundings, and no dog is too shy to mate in public whenever it wants. Now women...do not be offended but u guys are closer to the cat species. You guys are sensitive, weary, and attentive to everything...sometimes too worried about everything. A cat will want attention and just stay where it is until someone gives it to them instead of searching for it. It will walk around until someone finally gives it to them.
I know you guys are trying to figure out where I'm going, but I am simply requesting...ladies stop beating around the bush if you want something. Guys are sometimes simple minded when it comes to feelings, or guys like me are sensitive to what women want but are tired of them beating around the bush. In this day and age u must either ask for what you want or just work for it....so I make ya ask, if ya want it that bad then work for it. I love working for what I want...it makes it that much better.
No these differences all fall into place when it comes to a women's favorite question...the one question you guys will NOT beat around the bush for. "Why won't you talk to me" or "Do you want to talk about it" and when its serious it is just "Let's Talk". I hate those words because it is like a man is going into battle with a force that cannot lose. Men do not like to argue. If we argue it is about fun and exciting things like football or a new dance move, etc. I over hear women's conversations and everything sounds so negative. "Why do men cheat" "Why don't they notice my hair and nails" "Why men are dogs" lol! Men, Men, Men. I always wondered why women talk so much sh*t about men but when a man leaves them then it is the end of the world. IT IS CONFUSING. I have given advice to alot of women about getting over just one man, when a man is heartbroken, we bottle it up and in about a week to a month we move on. It is life, a grim and unfortunate life, but that is how it is. I have built a 2 year and 7 month relationship off of a rebound girl!
SO when guys and girls talk it is like both sides talking into a sling shot. They just get slung back or goes over the partner's head. I hate talking to a girl about certain things. I can write to a girl for days, but when it comes to talking, it is TOO MUCH WORK trying to get a woman to understand a man's point of view and I know it is the same for Women. The only difference is....men do not care. If someone does not understand us, then we just move on, as long as we understand what we were explaining. Women on the other hand have to get everyone to understand them. Women are more about what other think and want about them. When a guy just naturally cares about how he feels about himself. "Of course there are exceptions"!
I have been having issues with a woman and no matter how many times we argue about the same thing, three or five days later the same argument comes up. Pretty much, nothing is accomplished. I think marriage is the hugest accomplishment in the world. Because if a Man and a Woman can some how get over the thousands of differences between them and stay together in an endless battle of marriage, they are on a King and Queen level. I am not putting down any women. Personally I commemorate you guys for being able to think the way you guys do. Because like my "Make-up to Mask" note. I would not be able to act and make my appearance based on what other people think of me. I like looking good and perception is very important to me, but I will never where heels that kill my feet just to look good. Our wear a tight girdle that impairs my breathing so I can get more attention. Nowadays the gap is closing. Alot of guys are doing their eyebrows and get waxing and manicures, but still women are finding more and more ways to keep that gap. Women are a beautiful species and Men can not touch what ya'll got, but I just wish you guys would just stop and be comfortable for the majority of the time. Ladies go to college, and during finals, I bet ya will dress nice and comfortable; no make up, sweats and a hood, wife-beater if ya'll down south, and I bet you guys will feel comfortable to yourselves, but not in appearance to others.
I want to understand ya, but sometimes i do, but I think it is silly. You guys yell and scream at us that we don't understand; men do understand, we just do not believe that is right or simply do not care. I notice hair changes, style changes, new perfumes, but do we think it is life or death if we compliment it or even comment on it? NO. When we get a fresh hair cut, a new pair of kicks and some pricey jeans we do not look for compliments, we look for pride. Yes we care about appearance. We want others to take a look and some want haters, but do we need to hear it? no, we just need to know. We believe it ourselves.
Now men, I know there are alot of ya'll that don't give a damn what ya woman says. Ya may not understand, but alot of times just trying to understand is enough. I think it is psychologically impossible to understand, but efforts is better than neglect. My favorite topic that all women bring up "Why do men have thoughts about other women even though they are in a relationship?". I think you women should get off this and accept it. It is better for them to think than to act! They are still with ya shouldn't make it that big of an issue because making it an issue can only result into him making it an action. U think guys can control their minds. There is psychological and biological reasons why men think about sex with other women. Because we just think sex, not relationships, not long walks on a beach, and not marriage. Just curiosity! As long as a man does not act on it, there should be no problems. and I know women have those thoughts as well. We are created similar in many ways, and just because women say "I only have eyes for my man" BULL! You have eyes, and eyes see and perceive...period. U say u are only attracted to your man, congrats, but if your man was not there you would see every man wouldn't ya. You guys don't go blind just cuz you have a man, stop living in a dream world. All men know this. Stop lying to us, because we are not that stupid.
Imma wrap this up. I love women....ALOT, but there are differences between men and women that can ultimate separate us if we let it. We are all human and we all have unique qualities, but in general men have their own qualities and so do women and then both of us have qualities that we share. So next time you guys "talk" make sure that ladies, don't bite off ya man's head and throw giant plant vases at them. And men, try caring for a little more than just yourselves and what's in ya pants. Remember, effort is better than nothing. If that don't work...make up sex.

The Introduction

The name given to me at birth is Akeem Porteous, but I'm now known a Denio Luciano by all. I am a producer,and writer/singer. My stamp on life has not yet been made but its coming I give you my word. My style is unique, a mixture of reggae, hiphop, and R&B. The reason I say all this is to let you know a little about me because I know lots of people wants to know who I am. Simply put, I AM THE FUTURE!