MY SOUL

So today I should be having fun tricking people and clowning around yelling april fools right after. sorry world thats not the case today, I'm pretty much in a Gloomy mood trying to handle what today really is to me. Today is the day that a shining star was Born. on that unusually snowy April day at Yale New Haven Hospital when his mother put that death grip on my hands while pushing out my little man. I was a young teen and scared but I was so happy at the same time. After 45 minutes of screams, first came the head then the rest followed. It was like magic, something I've never seen before. I remember thinking this my life, my all, my everything. Nothing came above him, no female not even my own motha, I WOULD RATHER DIE THAN SEE MY LITTLE MAN SUFFAH! my world revolved around his existence.

I DEDICATE THIS TO THE MEMORIES OF MY SON
ONLY GOD KNOWS
Theres an..empty space where my heart use to be..
I was destroyed when they brought the news to me..
to this day I still refuse to see..
how could it be..
your gone away from me..
I wonder how..I wonder where..
did you go so early in the year..
did you know just how much I cared??
and how I thank you for always being there.........
Its like my whole world just disappeared...
remember when you saw how your face would drow..
you use to cry when i was leaving cause you loved your daddy so..
now its my turn to cry while watching you go...
its been a pleasure all those years..
while watching you grow..
forever more I'll be LOVING YOU SO!!!!

ONLY GOD..KNOWS..
ONLY GOD..KNOWS..
WHY MY SON IS GONE..
WHY HIS MEMORY LIVES ON..
ONLY GOD..KNOWS..
ONLY GOD..KNOWS..
WHY YOU'RE NOT AROUND..
BUT YOU'RE SMILING DOWN.......

Lord I know you are a just God
Anything weh happen inna life a strictly must God
Devil want wi feel right away like you're the wurst God
But I and I a trust God..

IN MEMORIES OF MY GONE BUT NEVER FORGOTTEN SOUL "MIGUEL AKEEM PORTEOUS" (April 1, 2006 - Sept, 24 2009)